CLAIMING IT!!!!

2010 is going to be my year i plan to doing things alot different and let go ALOT of things and ppl. I claim 2010 to be the best year i can make it to be. all smiles from here on out! :-)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sincerely,
asr

SHE AINT NOTHING BUT A HOE!

Okay so I was sitting at my old high school today and I heard a couple of things that kinda got under my skin.

First, I'm standing outside of a classroom and this guy is trying to talk to this girl, she blows him off and told the guy to leave her alone. His response was "YOU AINT NOTHING BUT A HOE ANYWAYS!"

Second, I'm walking down the hallway and hear a group of girls talking to each other and one of the girls laughed at something her friend said and responded "HOE YOU STUPID!"


See i have a problem with both of these situations. The first situation, a guy can't call a girl a hoe because she didnt want to talk to you, that doesnt make her an hoe. The second situation, how could girls get soooo mad when a guy calls her a hoe, but when she talking with her girls its okay. That doesnt make any sense to me. I feel guys need to figure out what the meaning of a hoe really is and females need to have more respect for themselves and other females as well.

Sincerely,
Asr...

JUST SOME THOUGHTS!!

It’s 4:34 in the morning and I have so much running through my HEAD it doesn’t make any sense. Okay first I have so many why me questions. Like why did I have to get HURT?, why do I feel like I can't TRUST nobody?, why do I feel like I have to please EVERYBODY?, why do I feel like I will never MAKE IT?, ITS JUST SO MANY QUESTIONS AND THOUGHTS THAT I FEEL I HAVE NO ANSWERS TO! I have been through A LOT in so little time. Sometimes I don’t know what to do I feel like giving up but that’s not me I don’t give up. I want to take my storms head on but sometimes I feel like some things are to big for me to handle so I put it in GODS hands. YES, I have been in love and YES I got hurt, which is half of the reason I feel the way I do. I have took the verbal and emotional abuse from him. Yes I do still love him but who doesn’t still love their first love. I went through so much with that boy. From wiping his tears, from sitting and listening to his problems, from listening to his dreams, from listening to his past, listening to his present and how he wants to better his future. YES I WAS THERE! I was the one who stood strong by his side no matter what EVERYBODY else would say why because I LOVED HIM. But hey I guess I wasn’t what he was looking for and he moved on to somebody who was a FRIEND OF MINE! But that’s how it be sometimes WELL that’s what they tell me. Sometimes I feel like I’m in this world all by myself. Yes I have friends but they don’t want to hear about my problems all the time. Can’t run to mama she got problems on her on. Can’t run to DADDY he doesn’t care.
I talk to my grandmother who passed in “2006” all the time. I miss her soooooooooooooooooo much she was the one who kept my head on straight and the one who kept my anger down. Her saying was “let the lord handle it”. That would always make me smile. I smiled a lot when she was here but it seems like every since she has passed away things have made a BIG turn around family wise. I don’t know what’s going on. But I guess it will get better. I WONDER when tho. Some MANY questions. That has NO answers!
I just want all these cloudy days to go away but for the time being ill sit back and wait to see what unfolds! I don’t know what god has planned for me but I know its something WONDERFUL my god has never let me down, he has always been on time for everything I LOVE my god!

Sincerely,
Asr.....